july 27, 2011

Guys Ladies, it's been so long!!!

I have recently considered updating my awful spelling... let's just take this one word at a time. well I'm slightly proud to say that I was hit on by a 22 year-old. I'm only proud because he thought I was older than I was, then after that he got kinda creepy so that ended quickly like within hours... I probably hold the world recorded for blowing off creepers, and/or attracting creepers. Anywho, I miss my roommate, Allie Sue terribly! I told my mom the other night, "I think I just need some Allie time, I need to go see her or vice versa. I just really really miss her... and love her." My momma ofcourse was understanding and said we'd work it out. Love her.. she is just great!
My poor mother literally listens to all my problems from stomach ache to heart ache. I love her dearly! Lately, we have really tried to spend more time together. I love girl time with my mom, more than I ever thought I would. Let me put it in perspective for yall; I go out almost every night of the week to hang with friends. Literally, 6 out of 7 because Mondays are family night and even sometimes I leave after family time. Lately, Momma and I have started having one on one girl talks and I have been home 3 or 4 nights this week. I honestly would rather being doing that then hanging out with most of my friends. I love her, she like is the best friend you could ever ask for... really! She listens and not just like i'm listening to you, but she listens and looks deep into your eyes and hears every word your saying and askes deep, thought provoking questions. Really she should be a counselor, its incredible the advice that she'd give you. If I could describe her in one word it would wise!
ok ok ok, I will update you on my life now...
umm I have been working alot and thats about it. :) I dont really "go out" I guess, it's more just hanging out with friends. I'd rather be bored with friends, than bored alone. Also, I really really miss my roomy... I can't say it enough! She is awesome, she's just great all around! I would really apperciate it if she would just come live with me :) Allliee.. are you reading this?! p.s. her blog is atthewestend.blogspot.com READ IT... well when she updates, which is rare to never. but she's witty when she does!
Also, I died my hair its a dark brown and it kinda has a red tint to it! I also put in exstentions so its like REALLLLLY long. :) I can literally just sit and play with it for hours! I may be going country dancing tonight and i'm catching up with an old friend. She's a good girl, i'm super stoked and I love her family. I love that we were gonna have coffee and somehow that turned into painting... so I guess we're painting! :) yaaay i'm all about that... although I haven't painted since I was like 10, so we'll see how this goes...
And welp, that's about it. I'll try to continue to update you guys on my otherwise boring life.

working at a nail salon...

pros:
you get kinda high of the smell, jk ;)
you do nothing but sit on your computer
sometimes you talk to people
you have hours to blog, fb stalk, tummmmbbllrr :), have pretend convos in your head
you have hour long lunch breaks and your paid on lunch break... ahhhyaa
super flexiable schedule
get your nails done for free, there very territoral

cons:
bad days.. you still must be nice and speak to the customer
sometimes people are speaking and your like "haha ya me too!" but in your heard your like "hahah wth did you just say!?!?!"
some customers have yet to remove the stick shoved up their butt and you must be nice them, even when you wanna siccisor kick them in the back of the head
sometimes your boss is really bored so he laughs out loud.. reallllly loud to youtube vids, that only he finds funny
sometimes i just am not in the mood. NOT IN THE MOOODDD!
they do not like you working for anyone but them so you keep that 2nd job on the DL!

that is all. clearly i am bored.

uh-oh

I may have had a minor freak out today. okay a major freak out. okay it was a major major freak out. do not judge me sir! welllllllp, heres the story: my father and i were talking about if i should do a 1099 or w2 form (work/tax forms) and we were just going back and forth about and then he said "how. do. you. know.?" and it wasnt just like "how do you know" no no no no it was the "how. do. you. know.?" its like when you dont get something and people spell it out for you like your stupid, well that apparently bothers me because something snapped. i lost it. the crazy came out. and all the sudden im yelling about how my dad and sister talk to me like im stupid. oh gosh looking back your like whooooooaa your loco. YOU NEEDA CHILLL LADDY. seriously looking back im like

"who acts like that.... oh that would be me..."

so not my finest moment. and on top of that i had to go to work and two things ... 1. you dont wanna get out of your car crying and walk into work, because then everyones like "whats wrong?" and that i know bothers me, so im already fearing another freak out. 2. i spilled coke on my shirt -____- my goodness could this day get any worsssee!!?!?!? luckily my lil sis brought me a shirt. i wish i could reinact my thank you. it was wonderful, im acting so matturily today.

and now, wanna no whats going on now? my boss is telling me to watch this video of a weird man licking his eye. apparentely its hilarious... i just dont get it. so its been a wonderful day so far. thank goodness for blogs that allow me throw up all my words.

INNAPROPRIATE.PANTSOFF.DANCEOFF.

ewwie i feel kinda sicko but thats okay because im eating chickfila<3

alllll the things i need/want to do today:
-make my tumblr better and learn to reblog
-pick my profs for next year
-get my life organized
-call tanning salon to see if i got the job
-make a better diet/work out plan
(b/c the one i have now is non-exsistant)
-find a college church group to get involved in
(thank you everyone who has already helped out)

alllllll the things i will actually do today:
-fb stalk
-find funny things on tumblr
-forget about twitter
-watch jenna marbles videos till i am histerically laughing
-ask someone why there is a cricket sound in the store?
-do my job, slightly
-go to my greatgrandmas view... R.I.P. Grandma Meadi<3
-watch t.v., pass out to t.v.
-be annoying on my blog, because i have no life :)

dont judge me peeps. im bored at work! and i know what your gonna say if your bored, do some of those things on the list and you know what i have to say to that??!!? well go watch the jenna marbles video "when the face doesnt work". pick a technique and imagine me doing it. thats what i have to say. :) thanks and goodnight folks!

okay ladies, here's the deal:

So I get super annoyed when people like compalin or whine a lot, but then I just do it too. So i'm on a rant, good luck getting me off.
uno) im peeling. not just anywhere but on my face, my face. come on. really? really! MY FACE!? not a big issue, just a slight annoyance.
dos) im having a fashion crisis. fashionista here is having color problems. i lovvvvveeeeee fashion but it seems like everything i wear lately is white or cream or black. issue? for normal people, no. for me, HUGE PROBLAMO. so instead of just complaining i have thought of two ways to fix this:
      a) dont look at fashion or go to the mall for like a week, do a little detox
      b) go look at fashion blogs when im not tired, cranky, and/or annoyed
tres) my parental unit really really really wants me to have a job, so badly that they have made it a requirment while living in there house. im 18, I DONT WANNNNAAA! [btw when your 18, that crap doesnt work anymore]. seriously growing up suckkkks.
four) ;) sneaky how i just typed four, huh? im tired but i cannot sleep. fashion issues consume my mind. for those of you who have seen 'Confessions of a Shopaholic'. its like that without a happy ending.
now CINCO) this big one, my biggest problamo. i really am having a hard time getting into my bible. :( any suggestions!? im thinking of doing some Beth Moore stuff? and getting involved at new church, because well idk. i need something new.

so many words. all the time.

 i wish.
i wish you would have been a man
i wish you would have done what you said
i wish you would have said what you'd done
i wish you would have been better
i wish you would have been real
i wish you would have been the person you said you were
i wish you would have been the guy i needed
i wish you would have been a man
but bottom line you weren't. you made your bed now you have to lie in it. im sorry i couldnt help and im sorry that i hurt you. but lets not play dumb here you hurt just the same, you hurt me even worse. you made a liar out of yourself and eventually you made one out of me. you dont get to do that ever again so im sorry that i wont see you or give you even 5 min of my time. im sorry i gave all your stuff back, but i will not be sorry that i stood for myself. after so long of letting you in and giving you pieces of my heart, i finally said no more. i guarded and still am guarding my heart. i made wrong decisions but i made them right. so no, you dont get any of my time, my heart, my life. you are not any part of me anymore. from my point of view, you might as well be up on the moon.
that felt so good to get of my chest. wooo.

that was then and this is now...
and now whats on my mind is fashion.
i was so scared in high school to put my style out there, and im really sure why. because not to brag but my style isnt all that bad. then again im byist. but still why do i care, that was high school such a small, minor 4 years that i will barely remember. well anyways on the subject of turning a new leaf, i am gonna wear what i want when i want. amen? AMEN!

#facebook #twitter #blogger #tumblr...

#whydowehaveclassonfridays?
this is the random things i'd like to do:
1. travel the world
2. get a cute pair of trouser jeans that arent high waters
3. married/children
4. get good grades/get a degree
5. be content
6. public speak about Jesus
7. get more into fashion
8. have/learn money skills

alsooooo...
on facebook on the right side of your screen there are all these things that say "like this" and i'm always like "idiots like these things, that is dumb, who care about that". THEN.... i liked one.. GLOWSTICKS<3 why are they so mindlessly entertaining, kinda like blogging???

and...
i go home in 2 weeks from today<3 yaay yaaay yaaaaaay! on the roader home, im taking my best friend and roomy, allie sue to the airport because i love her.

nice...
someones IM just went off in classs. hahahahaahahahhahha and i got shouted at this morning, i dont take that well -____- 

sasssyyyyer today<3
tay the tard

oh na na whats my name?

subject: favorite vids
thanks to: youtube
-lincoln park, "hide yo kids, hide yo wife, and hide yo husbands..."
-dave at the dentist "is this real life?"
-lemme holla "hooooooooolllllllaaaaaaaaa"

just a few of my fave videos

1 Thes. 5:16-18

"Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus" 1 Thes. 5:16-18
We talked about this in family group (a group of students with a staff family on Wed. morning to discuss passages, books, ect.) and some people brought really good points, I would love to share with yall. Feel free to comment [respectfully] and throw in your input please. :)
1. "Rejoice always..." We mulled over this a bit and this is a much shorter version of the conclusion we came to: Have joy in all crimcumstance. Joy is having hope, not necessarily being happy. I would even venture to say even when you hate it, hate it with a smile. This also relates to Romans 12:12 "Be joyful in hope, patient in afflicition, and faithful in prayer"
2. "...pray continually..." Take a look at Psalm 119:164 with me; "Seven times a day I praise you for your righteous laws." Well seven times represents fully doing something/fullness. A. you have decide for your self what praise and prayer are. I believe prayer is a way of communicating with God and praising is a way to do that (through dance, song, ect.). I think it was well said by a teacher here: He was explaining that him and his wife will have talks and kinda put that talk on pause to go there seperate ways/go throughout the day and reconveine later. Same thing I think talk to God in the morning while your getting ready, in the car and when you get to class/work just put that talk on hold until you have time to devote to Him, again. (but make that time with Him a priority).
3. "...give thanks in all circumstances" Again, "Be joyful in hope, patient in afflicition, and faithful in prayer" Romans 12:12. These verses really run together. To give thanks in all circumstances when its good or bad, thank God because your circumstances could be SO much worse. Also, in giving thanks be reminded of the people that are in your "bad" situation everyday. Give thanks, because your still alive to do so. God gave you more time on this earth and all though we (most of us) would rather be with Him in Heaven, He gave us more time to spread His Word, that we have the privledge of beleiving and practicing.
So like I said this is just some stuff we talked about in family group, feel free to leave comments! Thanks guys! :)

Jeremiah 29:11...

"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope.'"

I have really learned over the past year especially that when you ask God to take control and tell Him that you'll do what He wants... You better mean it! When we ask God to take control He does, to the uttmost. If you asked me in Aug./Sept. what I was gonna do with the rest of the year I would have said graduate in May/June and then go to Texas State. Now it's January, I graduated high school in Dec. which was a miracle in it self and now I live on the side of mountain and i'm going to a bible program.Then, in the fall i'll be going to Blinn in College Station- last place I thought I would end up. Does God work in mysterious ways or what!? Welp, i'm really learning that God really does control my life and that as much as I try to deal with things 'my own way', I can't. I will fail everytime and thank God for that. His way is so much better. :)

Also, if you'd like text me/message me on fb/comment below and I will send you spontantious bible verses... I don't wanna say daily/weekly because i'm not exactly sure when i'll be sending them out but anyways feel free to also send in prayer requests! I'm doing this selfishly I admit- I wanna be in the word more and I know, that for me knowing I have people that are expecting something will hold me accountable. Anywho, if you'd like the verses/prayers let me know!

One last thing, on my heart/mind... If you aren't feeling called to do something inpaticular like go to college per say, think what are you really truely being called to do. For me, I do not feel called to go to college, but I feel called to honor my parents and I know that's what they want for me and thats why i'm going. Can I get an Amen!?

Thanks for reading y'all,
Sweet & Sassy

"God...

This week/past few days I have really learned what it is to have God be center of my life. I'm struggling so much! It seems like something else always gets in the way and it's easy to not have a quiet time here and not think its a big deal, because we are in the word SO MUCH. But i'm learning it doesnt work like that. If i'm not in the word indivually, i'm not growing indivually with God... I'm REALLLLY struggling, please keep this is in your prayers. I need God to be the center and the focus, but how do I do that when there is much else going on!?
Also, i've been trying to learn how to listen, or better yet hear God. Sometimes I think to myslef "is He just ignoring me or am I deaf? Whats the deal God, I need some help here!" A close friend posted a status yesterday that said, "God help me i'm down here on my knees begging you to help me". I'm so jealous of this person's strength in hard times and i'm saying the same thing. God, help me!! IM ON MY KNEES BEGGING YOU TO HELP!!! I haven't been that strong lately, I tried to deal with 'filling a viod' in my own way... and needless to say, it didn't work out. It never does when we try to do it on our own. 
WELP! That's about it, also i'm still planning my wedding. haha I do enjoy it, SOOO much! :)
Please keep my in your prayers, sorry this one was kinda whinny (i have been whinny lately).

Sassy & Sweet
xoxo

...be the center of my life"

THIS JUST IN..

so let me update you on a few things; wedding. workout. relationship.
where to start....
Relationship...
or lack there of. so me and my boy, Z ended things. It's for the best. I don't wanna go into detail, but relationships should be God's will, not your own. I'm not bitter or even sad anymore because of this... " 'For I know the plans that I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope' " Jeremiah 29:11. If it's not God's plan for me, then I don't want it. Can I get an Amen?!
Workout/Diet...
So if your my friend on facebook, you saw that last week wasn't my best. I admit I had a few off days, well really just one... Other than that I'm rockin and rollin on this diet/workout thing. I feel better already and we have only been doing it two weeks now. Yes, it's still hard but I feel so much better! Yall, it is awesome and recommend it to anyone [sidenote: "Your accent plaques your text" -Tal Penner. I'm aware I say "yall" like its nobody's buisness, no need to judge]!
Wedding...
Don't worry Momma, i'm not getting married.. yet ;) but yall.. I LOVE WEDDINGS! and more importantly i LOVE LOVE LOVE to plan them, so I did a planning on my own wedding and I have some pretty great ideas, if I do say so myself! ;)
Dress: Girls- teal, blue, or green, or yellow bridesmaids dresses (short and all different styles, but same colors) with COWBOY BOOTS!!! :) i am a southern girl!!! ;)
Boys: Morning Tux, brown, caramely colors with dark drown sperrys. :)
Colors: teal (greens and blues) and yellow and white (duh!)!
ofcourse i want the long gown, butterfly cut at top and then kinda poof at the waste (just a little, not tooo much, because no one wants to look like a cupcake)
maybe at brunch time ( i kinda stole that from my roomy, allie sue!) but maybe like 11-2ish or like sundown.. i like sundown.. i want it to be on a ranch so i got to pic a cooler time of day.
also.. i want my reception and ceremony to be at the same place. i have a big family so if we get them in the same its already been a miracle, it wont happen twice!
I can't decide if i want picnic tables or not.. but it'll definitely be a backyard wedding.
For the kids i wanna pony rides and i think we'll have a "Western photobooth" and that picture will be the present for the guests.
we'll probably have a decorate your own cake for everyone at the end, like little mini cakes
i want everyone to be involved. :)
also...
borrow: earrings from Momma
blue: blue on my cowboy boots :)
old: probably something from Mops or Granny!
new: wedding ring DUH... jk i have no clue about this.
I want it to be backyard with a touch of elegance and ton of fun!

and now all i need is the groom! :) hah wish me luck!

bathing suit season..

is a comin'!
and to prepare me and my sweet roomie allie sue are working out and dieting.
now i have to say when i decided to hop on board, i did not think we would go through with it.
but oh have we.. its day 1 lol! but still we came through, we did it 6:30 am we walk to our gym.
we do a variety of things, pretty much at our own pace; elliptical, run, bike, tone our arms, abs (lots of abs).
im proud :) i feel like we should have stickers on the back of our cars that say im a proud parent of workout honors students! well anywho... would like to know what prompted this? ofcourse you would! well on this great spring break we went home and in Tejas it was just perfect for bathing suits & tanning & shopping. although i succesfully accomplished all of these things, i went up a pant size and my bathing suit wasn't all that flattering. i blame the bathing suit but really freshman year is to blame... or myself? ok myself geez yall really know how to quilt a girl! so i will update yall on this progress! :)
in other news...
relationships are hard but its good to know i got myself a good guy :) i've realized in all this that he cant be my saving grace, i've really got to depend on God for all that! and so as part of that relaztion i started getting serious about my quiet time...right after i work out! and putting that pressure on guy... NOT OKAY LADIES! if you are doing that stop, he cant save you or change you or make you better, you just gotta pray that you will depend on the Lord for it, because no on this earth can make you improve and make it last. if you try you'll end up in a horrible wirlwind of emotional spins that entagle you so much that you cant see straight. trusssst me! [sidenote: early i said "i've realized in all this"... by "this" i meant drama? i guess... we want change that we cant do ourselves and we were depending on each other to make it happen and thats just not how it works] well my advice (feel free to disregard or not) is to depend on God because he is ONLY ONE that can help you change, improve, whatever you wanna call it. p.s. "change" i really mean imrpove and thats not a bad thing... we should constantly be wanting to improve!

sweeeter than usual <3
hollla back lovas.

sorrryyy...

its been a while. i havent had a lot to talk about till now.
now i have a ton to talk about. although boys probably dont read this...
here's a little note for you;
when you ignore your gf or girl you like because shes annoying you because she's going through alot and wants to talk... its hurts. pretending like she never texted you or called you and not returning those calls/texts. thats a a-hole thing to do, (especially when she knows you got them). dumb excuses as to why you didnt respod. ignoring that hurt... that does serious damage. the end.
i admit that was written out of anger and i think its okay to be angry right about now.

-i'm so glad my momma raised me right. she taught me to do what was right even when its hard. to be a girlfriend, wife, and a momma myslef. she taught that above doing whats right for yourself or your loved ones, you gotta do whats right by Gods standards. but at the same time, sometimes it hurts.

it has been a hard past few days to say the least!
he loves me? yes. he loves God? yes. He wants to pursue me the way God has made it? ehhh.
thats the problem. it sucks to say, but all good things must come to an end.
BUT... all God things can last.
if God takes him away and changes his heart and brings him back then im set<3

on the other hand, im foolish. he loves me, loves God, wants to do it Gods way.

i love him, i dont wanna let go. he is my vent, my best friend, the one i can talk to about anything. what happens if he disagrees, what do i do if he leaves? who do i count on, who helps me back up off the ground, when i fall super hard on my butt? whos gonna hold me? whos gonna understand that even though this is super selfish, its totally okay? whos gonna love me through the good the bad and the crazy? whos gonna laugh with me when only i think its funny? whos gonna hold me? because i could go for that right about now; someone just holding me and letting me know its all gonna be okay and that he'd walk through anything by my side. does this count? will he walk with God more or the same way i am? i need to be led- i'm the woman. i need these things.  men need to be praised and loved in their positions, women need to be praised and loved in their persons. its hard to feel/know your loved for your person, for who you are, when you feel ignored and that your like a burden. i cant be on sometimes "to-do" list, my emotions cant be second, and my body especially cant be first.

okay that was a serious rant. and i meant every. word.

lets just be clear about one thing; i hate this but i will do what God wants, whatever that may be. and no i do not care what you think- except if its positive, if its hurtful stay away. i dont wanna deal with anything/anyone else right now.

"love covers a multitude of sins" -Proverbs 10:12

so my testimony:
I grew up in a Christian home, I had a mommy, daddy, and baby sister. We went to church, my parents were constantly involved in small group, we were very family oriented. As far as I was concerned, we were the perfect Christian family. Now my parents didn't get married till a month before I was born and that was never a secret, but at age 8 is that really important to you? Didn't think so. As I grew up and went into junior high, I was still for the most part a good kid. Then 7th grade came around, a close friend and I decided we wanted to know what was so special about alcohol so we snuck a bottle to her backyard when her parents weren't home and thats how that began. Boys began a little before that and I was just boy crazy, but nothing serious and as far as I was concerned I was a good girl. High school things took off for me. I had a guy or two I took more seriously than usual and I had made drill team- I thought I was the it girl! For a while, I ran on that popularity and made my life drill team, boys, and soon partying. I still went to church on Sundays and Wednesdays, camps all through the summers, and weekend retreats. Then fast foward and it hit me- it's junior year and I am and have been in a compromising place with a boy, drugs, and alcohol. On top of that I'm a officer on drill team and

its a spring day :)

yaaaaaaay today is beautiful!!! its putting me in such a good mood!
im online shopping, and just had a fantabulous idea! :
i can sell my old clothes on ebay in a make mulaa, so i can go summer shopping :)
also i come home in 11 days!! aahhh i cant wait :) weeeeehee
whats on the menu for today? NOTHING :)

so heres a few summer dresses i like ....also if anyone wanted to donate them to the "Taylor's Poor and Wants Clothes Foundation" i will not object!

i LOVEEE SUMMER dresses!
words cannot describe, my love for summer dresses! woohooo thats all i have for yall!
im gonna do something.

xoxo, much love,
sassy today.

denver, co.

you know those days, that are just uhhhh. ya those ones?
just uhh. not good. not bad. i've been having a lot of those.
idk what to think of them..actually they are thinking days.
i just think about the most serious, stupid, and girly stuff.
right now: im listening to jason mraz<3 :) mmmm. he just makes me so happy!
i miss zackary a lot, some days are just hard on a couple. especially a long distance couple.
tanya (another student) told me if you can survive long d, you can survive anything.
were surviving :) not only that but i think its actually been good for us!
[just got an itch that i scratched for a good minute]
2 things:
1. the rodeo is going on in houston, boyfriend is at the cook off and everyones posting pics in there new sun dresses and boots<3 ...jealous much? why yes, yes i am. dont judge me!
2. the students of ravenclaw partcipated in a missions trip this weekend, in Denver! it was ...intresesting. pros and cons. GO> cons: we stayed and served at an emergent church. a woman is the pastor. dont get me wrong, woman should particpate in the church, but i feel like it is pretty clear that women are NOT called to be pastors. A man should lead the church, a symbol how a man should lead the household. now the PROS :) >we got to do a pray walk through Denver and just pray for the people we saw (sidenote: tim bought our family group all hot coco, much appreciate!)  then we got paint the church we were staying at and i must say i l<3ve painting, i sooo hope to be an interior decorator! that was super fun and through that and the rest of the weekend our school definitely got a chance to bond! its was greaat! now time to do homework!
oh one last thing i come home soon :) yaaay and i get to stay 12 days! :)

much love,
sweet today.

emotional. physical. and any other way. PART DOS.

hmm. the draining is over. i was revived by my sweet mommy and roomy. after a long talk with mommy. i have once again realized i dont know everything. not even close. i know so little. and i have to say being really affrimed in the fact that i am my daddys most important priority is really important in every girls life. (brothers, fathers, and sons remind your girls of this...wether its sister, mommys, or daughters). well long story short. i love my roomy and mommy. mommy is definietly someone who can honestly say shes been there and counsel me and my roomy just has so much wisdom :) i love them both and thank you both for talking with me. xoxo i'll edit later and add on, but for now ITS WORK DAY TIME!

things allie sue has gotten me into...

or at least got me more into
-wide legged trousers
-updos/teasing
-classier style
-God
-using my wisdom to pour into others (as little wisdom as that is)
-its okay to not be the sterotypical christian girl/kid
-maturity
-lovelovelove (a deeper, more serious love, than just a shallow friendship love)
-sarcasm.. okay thats a lie i was sarcastic before

bottom line: i love you roomie, and your blog atthewestend.blogspot.com. :)

emotional. physical. and any other way.

woooh the past few days have been emotionally draining, which has let in to being physically draining.
but it was a good thing. :) i love my mommy and my daddy but being away from them makes it really hard when were upset with each other. the one thing i have learned (mostly because my momma tells me) is that to my daddy there is nothing more important than my safety (physically, emotionally, and any other way).
like my momma says "you are his first born and there is nothing that will stand in the way of him protecting you". my father is such a Christ like man i sometimes have no idea how to respond. when i had made some EXTREMELY horrible choices and when other people couldnt even look at me, he and only he pulled me into his arms and reminded me that i was loved and that nothing i could do would change that. it makes me tear up to think about that.
wooh okay on to a lighter subject..
its my roomies birthday tomorrow and i cant wait to give her, her presents!! :) she's such a sweet girl, i love her soo muchhh<3 shes has become "one of my people"
[sidenote: my mom calls family and close friends her people mostly in casual settings like when were leaving a resturant.."all my people, lets go". its for the closest only] it totally reminds me of home and another way im becoming more and more like my mommy :)
i hope to continue to be like her the older i get! <3 she is amazing!!
well yaay yaay class is starting in 30 min! and we have a speaker, ray tell us about worldviews and its really cool -totally intrigues me! im obsessed. and sometimes my sweet friend, aaron lets me sit by my friend, rachel and we make goofy comments and keep the class entertaining! :)

thats all for now,
much love,
feeling sweet

quick note!

NICOLE WAS FOUND!! PRAISE GOD!!
she is now home and safe with her family!!
thanks for the prayers!!
also i just cleaned my room and im about to go do hw
yay for accomphlishment!
also i talked to my mommy :)

much love,
feelin sweet :)

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OMG MOST IMPORTANT NEWS! my friends sister is missing, her name is Nicole she has chin length brown hair, regtangular shaped glasses, 5'3, 135 lbs., she's only 15, last seen in Cypress, Texas!
please keep them in your prayers!
okay.... today has been eh. not so great. :/ i hate days like that.
this morning was fabulous, i made cupcakes :) NOM NOM NOM!
but then the awful subject of my debit card was brought up. i overdrafted.. yuck!
a sweet sweet friend helped me out and got the nsf taken away! LOVE YOU!!
but my parents are still pretty ticked, rightfully so :( if you read this im sorry!!
uggggh growing up stinks sometimes!! well i applied at a temp. agency for the summer.. YAAY FOR WORK! i hope i get to be a cute secretary or something! :) thats basically what i applied for.
im trying to put my mind at peace, but i hate when people are made at me and i know i know its just a part of life, not everyones going to like you blah blah blah. but when the people you love are mad at you, it hurts. well i guess its not when their mad... that i can deal with, but its being ignored. i dont like that.
hm.. im debating on saying this but i definitly think its immature to just ignore people unless your at an agreement that you just dont like each other, but when your mad you should definitly take time to cool down before you talk... but im mean DANG how long do you need to cool down, people!! ugggh.
so im kinda sorry that i have just been complaining, thas awful of me! okay looking on the brightside..
I WILL LEARN FROM THIS EXPERIENCE!.. well hopefully. hehe ;)
i need to make a budget and then send it to mommy and daddy and then stick to it!
and for this summer, i need a money plan asap! oaky well i have fellowship tonight yaaay!
dinner time... oh and ALLIE'S BIRTHDAY IS ON WED!!!!!   nbd. ;)

2/19/11 starting at 4:15

so, im bored. whats with that word? bored. boring. bore.
well anyways its saturday, the first saturday at Ravencrest that I have had nothing to do and my roomy, A is gone, thats probably why i have nothing to do. she is so entertaining, together we can make fun out of nothing. so im listening to music and i wanna download some more but it takes FOREVER here! so i gave up on that idea.
yaaay only 19 days till i'm home, but till then im getting ready for fellowship on Sunday- it's my families turn.
[sidenote: for those of you who have never attented ravencrest (aka ravenclaw, the claw) we have these groups called families and we usually read something in the bible or a book and discuss it on wed mornings, our families also switch off weeks leading our sunday night fellowship, its just like music-sometimes a game and usually someone or a few people talk. its pretty awesome. it allows the students to get creative and share something on our hearts] me and sarah are making baking a special suprise.. NOM NOM NOM :)
im having one of those off days, like i feel like nothing looks good on me and all the im doing is pointless but oh well its a lazy saturday- what more could i ask for!? right! right?... ;)
-one day i will write a whole post with proper grammer and punctuation, for now im sticking to this
so heres a few fun questions feel free to comment and answer:
favorite thing to do on a nice day?
favorite thing to do on a rainy day?
favortie color?
birthday?
whats your view on marriage? (we all have someone, never wanna get married, ect)?
whats your view on gay marriages?
whats your view on abortion?
whats your view on God?
whats your view on dating?
these are toughys, i know. i was just thinking about some of these.
my answers: lay by the pool; cuddle and watch movies/sleep; purple; jan. 28; im not sure yet, but i know i'm getting married; gay marriages im still not 100% sure on that, as of now i believe God made us to be man and woman but he gives us the choice to make those decisions, and really all decisions, so i think we should allow gay marriages; im 100% pro life the difference in this choice and allowing gay marriages is that, abortion is harming another child of God. let me be very clear on this: I AM NOT OKAY WITH THE HARM OF ANY OTHER PERSON, BELIEVER OR UNBELIEVER. [woo i just kinda passionate]; neeexxxxxtt God is my heavenly father and i should be doing my best to living a life to serve Him. although i fail more often than not; last oneeeee.. dating hmmm, well if it was anytime before this past october i would have said if yall like each other just date, its not that complicated. but since then (and yes im gonna turn this into a God thing) i have definitly had time to thing on it.. i dont want to date unless were pursuing marriage, eventually. now dont get me wrong you dont need to talk about it right away but you should be dating to see if you could eventually marry this person. important also i think you should hold your weaknesses between each other, unless seeking counsel like when im having a dating problem i go to an older couple or person who's been through it or a close friend. not anyone i have dated or thought of in that way. but someone i could trust to keep that between me and themselves. now like i've said i fail at this sometimes and im got in a vulnerable moment, but its been my experience that i have regretted allowing that person into that secret details of my relationship. anyways this has been kinda difficult.. and definitly is making me think more.. not good or bad nessarcily. just think.
im not exactly sure why i asked these questions but i would definitly enjoy some feedback, if you feel comfortable. but be respectful ;)
as for now i havent taken my eyes of this screen for 15 min and i really need to get started on homework and fellowship things.
wooo HAPPY SATURDAY! i think coming soon... my testimony? ehh idk. maybe.

much love,
feeling pretty sweet today.

the people i love



daddy, me, mommy, chocho







allie, my roomie :)










boyfriend, zack

 

2 in 1 day.

lets just be clear this will probably not be the norm.
so i'm in class and i admit- well confess, i feed my self-diagnosed, ADD, but blogging is fun!
but seriously this class is boring. i love the bible, dont get me wrong, best book ever written.
but im bored. God never said Christianity will always be excited, in fact sometimes its just living, a norm life.
the more i write, the more i sound like my momma- this is a great thing. when i grow up i wanna be just like her! seriously, if you dont know her, get to know her-she's incredible. (forgiving, kind, sweet, blunt, smart). whats not to love.. oh well when she's always right and i have to come back and tell her. thats a little annoying, but that means im maturing right? lets hope so. because that happens often.
currently im at an age where i think i know everything in the moment, then after that moment or night or action. i find out i know little, maybe nothing.. okay probably nothing.
wow i am ADD- my roomie just left class and i was so off for like 2 min. i started thinking about her shirt (its a dealthy hallows [harry potter] shirt), then i started thinking how tight that would be if that was a reality, but kinda scary. then i looked at my teacher and realized he probably knows im so far from class. maybe not that bad but still i go off on little rants all the time.
anyways, back to the bible. its so cool in some way, some ways a little frightening, but i just remember that God protects me. seriously though the things that happened back then are kinda cool- prophecies, that'd be a nice gift. i hope that when we get our new bodies i can fly- idk why that is so fascinating, but it totally is.
uhh i miss home. lots. i miss the smell of our house -(mostly the laundry room because it always smells amazing)- i really miss my mom, i try not to call her so much because well 1. we have no time 2. i feel like it'll make me miss her more. daddy, if you read this i miss you too, lots! your hugs are the best on a bad and as much as it annoyed me when you use to pat my back, i miss that the most. why? why! WHY!? did i take that for granted. choshie baby (my sister), i miss you too! dont worry my wardrobe misses you too! your so funny, i love when we randomly stay up till 3 am giggling, dancing, singing, talking? all those wonderful things. you are so important to me dont forget that ever!! now, last but not least, zackary! i miss you too, i talk to you more but that definitely makes me miss you more! lol but i dont wanna not talk either-it's weird how that happens. your too good to me! i love yall so much!!!
yes i said yall- im from texas, what did you expect. my ravencrest friends things texas isnt the greatest place on earth... oh are they mistaken. so nieve.
well this has been quite long, and pointless, but at some points its mindlessly entertaining. :)

being sweet and a litte sassy,
tay

rules people. lets keep it civil.

first, no judgement. this a place of expression. gosh. i sound like a hippie.
second, i dont bash you, so you dont bash me.
third, enjoy, laugh- at me? with me? which ever you prefer!

much love.
feeling a little more sassy than sweet today.