so many words. all the time.

 i wish.
i wish you would have been a man
i wish you would have done what you said
i wish you would have said what you'd done
i wish you would have been better
i wish you would have been real
i wish you would have been the person you said you were
i wish you would have been the guy i needed
i wish you would have been a man
but bottom line you weren't. you made your bed now you have to lie in it. im sorry i couldnt help and im sorry that i hurt you. but lets not play dumb here you hurt just the same, you hurt me even worse. you made a liar out of yourself and eventually you made one out of me. you dont get to do that ever again so im sorry that i wont see you or give you even 5 min of my time. im sorry i gave all your stuff back, but i will not be sorry that i stood for myself. after so long of letting you in and giving you pieces of my heart, i finally said no more. i guarded and still am guarding my heart. i made wrong decisions but i made them right. so no, you dont get any of my time, my heart, my life. you are not any part of me anymore. from my point of view, you might as well be up on the moon.
that felt so good to get of my chest. wooo.

that was then and this is now...
and now whats on my mind is fashion.
i was so scared in high school to put my style out there, and im really sure why. because not to brag but my style isnt all that bad. then again im byist. but still why do i care, that was high school such a small, minor 4 years that i will barely remember. well anyways on the subject of turning a new leaf, i am gonna wear what i want when i want. amen? AMEN!