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july 27, 2011

Guys Ladies, it's been so long!!!

I have recently considered updating my awful spelling... let's just take this one word at a time. well I'm slightly proud to say that I was hit on by a 22 year-old. I'm only proud because he thought I was older than I was, then after that he got kinda creepy so that ended quickly like within hours... I probably hold the world recorded for blowing off creepers, and/or attracting creepers. Anywho, I miss my roommate, Allie Sue terribly! I told my mom the other night, "I think I just need some Allie time, I need to go see her or vice versa. I just really really miss her... and love her." My momma ofcourse was understanding and said we'd work it out. Love her.. she is just great!
My poor mother literally listens to all my problems from stomach ache to heart ache. I love her dearly! Lately, we have really tried to spend more time together. I love girl time with my mom, more than I ever thought I would. Let me put it in perspective for yall; I go out almost every night of the week to hang with friends. Literally, 6 out of 7 because Mondays are family night and even sometimes I leave after family time. Lately, Momma and I have started having one on one girl talks and I have been home 3 or 4 nights this week. I honestly would rather being doing that then hanging out with most of my friends. I love her, she like is the best friend you could ever ask for... really! She listens and not just like i'm listening to you, but she listens and looks deep into your eyes and hears every word your saying and askes deep, thought provoking questions. Really she should be a counselor, its incredible the advice that she'd give you. If I could describe her in one word it would wise!
ok ok ok, I will update you on my life now...
umm I have been working alot and thats about it. :) I dont really "go out" I guess, it's more just hanging out with friends. I'd rather be bored with friends, than bored alone. Also, I really really miss my roomy... I can't say it enough! She is awesome, she's just great all around! I would really apperciate it if she would just come live with me :) Allliee.. are you reading this?! p.s. her blog is atthewestend.blogspot.com READ IT... well when she updates, which is rare to never. but she's witty when she does!
Also, I died my hair its a dark brown and it kinda has a red tint to it! I also put in exstentions so its like REALLLLLY long. :) I can literally just sit and play with it for hours! I may be going country dancing tonight and i'm catching up with an old friend. She's a good girl, i'm super stoked and I love her family. I love that we were gonna have coffee and somehow that turned into painting... so I guess we're painting! :) yaaay i'm all about that... although I haven't painted since I was like 10, so we'll see how this goes...
And welp, that's about it. I'll try to continue to update you guys on my otherwise boring life.

working at a nail salon...

pros:
you get kinda high of the smell, jk ;)
you do nothing but sit on your computer
sometimes you talk to people
you have hours to blog, fb stalk, tummmmbbllrr :), have pretend convos in your head
you have hour long lunch breaks and your paid on lunch break... ahhhyaa
super flexiable schedule
get your nails done for free, there very territoral

cons:
bad days.. you still must be nice and speak to the customer
sometimes people are speaking and your like "haha ya me too!" but in your heard your like "hahah wth did you just say!?!?!"
some customers have yet to remove the stick shoved up their butt and you must be nice them, even when you wanna siccisor kick them in the back of the head
sometimes your boss is really bored so he laughs out loud.. reallllly loud to youtube vids, that only he finds funny
sometimes i just am not in the mood. NOT IN THE MOOODDD!
they do not like you working for anyone but them so you keep that 2nd job on the DL!

that is all. clearly i am bored.

uh-oh

I may have had a minor freak out today. okay a major freak out. okay it was a major major freak out. do not judge me sir! welllllllp, heres the story: my father and i were talking about if i should do a 1099 or w2 form (work/tax forms) and we were just going back and forth about and then he said "how. do. you. know.?" and it wasnt just like "how do you know" no no no no it was the "how. do. you. know.?" its like when you dont get something and people spell it out for you like your stupid, well that apparently bothers me because something snapped. i lost it. the crazy came out. and all the sudden im yelling about how my dad and sister talk to me like im stupid. oh gosh looking back your like whooooooaa your loco. YOU NEEDA CHILLL LADDY. seriously looking back im like

"who acts like that.... oh that would be me..."

so not my finest moment. and on top of that i had to go to work and two things ... 1. you dont wanna get out of your car crying and walk into work, because then everyones like "whats wrong?" and that i know bothers me, so im already fearing another freak out. 2. i spilled coke on my shirt -____- my goodness could this day get any worsssee!!?!?!? luckily my lil sis brought me a shirt. i wish i could reinact my thank you. it was wonderful, im acting so matturily today.

and now, wanna no whats going on now? my boss is telling me to watch this video of a weird man licking his eye. apparentely its hilarious... i just dont get it. so its been a wonderful day so far. thank goodness for blogs that allow me throw up all my words.

INNAPROPRIATE.PANTSOFF.DANCEOFF.

ewwie i feel kinda sicko but thats okay because im eating chickfila<3

alllll the things i need/want to do today:
-make my tumblr better and learn to reblog
-pick my profs for next year
-get my life organized
-call tanning salon to see if i got the job
-make a better diet/work out plan
(b/c the one i have now is non-exsistant)
-find a college church group to get involved in
(thank you everyone who has already helped out)

alllllll the things i will actually do today:
-fb stalk
-find funny things on tumblr
-forget about twitter
-watch jenna marbles videos till i am histerically laughing
-ask someone why there is a cricket sound in the store?
-do my job, slightly
-go to my greatgrandmas view... R.I.P. Grandma Meadi<3
-watch t.v., pass out to t.v.
-be annoying on my blog, because i have no life :)

dont judge me peeps. im bored at work! and i know what your gonna say if your bored, do some of those things on the list and you know what i have to say to that??!!? well go watch the jenna marbles video "when the face doesnt work". pick a technique and imagine me doing it. thats what i have to say. :) thanks and goodnight folks!

okay ladies, here's the deal:

So I get super annoyed when people like compalin or whine a lot, but then I just do it too. So i'm on a rant, good luck getting me off.
uno) im peeling. not just anywhere but on my face, my face. come on. really? really! MY FACE!? not a big issue, just a slight annoyance.
dos) im having a fashion crisis. fashionista here is having color problems. i lovvvvveeeeee fashion but it seems like everything i wear lately is white or cream or black. issue? for normal people, no. for me, HUGE PROBLAMO. so instead of just complaining i have thought of two ways to fix this:
      a) dont look at fashion or go to the mall for like a week, do a little detox
      b) go look at fashion blogs when im not tired, cranky, and/or annoyed
tres) my parental unit really really really wants me to have a job, so badly that they have made it a requirment while living in there house. im 18, I DONT WANNNNAAA! [btw when your 18, that crap doesnt work anymore]. seriously growing up suckkkks.
four) ;) sneaky how i just typed four, huh? im tired but i cannot sleep. fashion issues consume my mind. for those of you who have seen 'Confessions of a Shopaholic'. its like that without a happy ending.
now CINCO) this big one, my biggest problamo. i really am having a hard time getting into my bible. :( any suggestions!? im thinking of doing some Beth Moore stuff? and getting involved at new church, because well idk. i need something new.

so many words. all the time.

 i wish.
i wish you would have been a man
i wish you would have done what you said
i wish you would have said what you'd done
i wish you would have been better
i wish you would have been real
i wish you would have been the person you said you were
i wish you would have been the guy i needed
i wish you would have been a man
but bottom line you weren't. you made your bed now you have to lie in it. im sorry i couldnt help and im sorry that i hurt you. but lets not play dumb here you hurt just the same, you hurt me even worse. you made a liar out of yourself and eventually you made one out of me. you dont get to do that ever again so im sorry that i wont see you or give you even 5 min of my time. im sorry i gave all your stuff back, but i will not be sorry that i stood for myself. after so long of letting you in and giving you pieces of my heart, i finally said no more. i guarded and still am guarding my heart. i made wrong decisions but i made them right. so no, you dont get any of my time, my heart, my life. you are not any part of me anymore. from my point of view, you might as well be up on the moon.
that felt so good to get of my chest. wooo.

that was then and this is now...
and now whats on my mind is fashion.
i was so scared in high school to put my style out there, and im really sure why. because not to brag but my style isnt all that bad. then again im byist. but still why do i care, that was high school such a small, minor 4 years that i will barely remember. well anyways on the subject of turning a new leaf, i am gonna wear what i want when i want. amen? AMEN!