"God...

This week/past few days I have really learned what it is to have God be center of my life. I'm struggling so much! It seems like something else always gets in the way and it's easy to not have a quiet time here and not think its a big deal, because we are in the word SO MUCH. But i'm learning it doesnt work like that. If i'm not in the word indivually, i'm not growing indivually with God... I'm REALLLLY struggling, please keep this is in your prayers. I need God to be the center and the focus, but how do I do that when there is much else going on!?
Also, i've been trying to learn how to listen, or better yet hear God. Sometimes I think to myslef "is He just ignoring me or am I deaf? Whats the deal God, I need some help here!" A close friend posted a status yesterday that said, "God help me i'm down here on my knees begging you to help me". I'm so jealous of this person's strength in hard times and i'm saying the same thing. God, help me!! IM ON MY KNEES BEGGING YOU TO HELP!!! I haven't been that strong lately, I tried to deal with 'filling a viod' in my own way... and needless to say, it didn't work out. It never does when we try to do it on our own. 
WELP! That's about it, also i'm still planning my wedding. haha I do enjoy it, SOOO much! :)
Please keep my in your prayers, sorry this one was kinda whinny (i have been whinny lately).

Sassy & Sweet
xoxo

...be the center of my life"