is a comin'!
and to prepare me and my sweet roomie allie sue are working out and dieting.
now i have to say when i decided to hop on board, i did not think we would go through with it.
but oh have we.. its day 1 lol! but still we came through, we did it 6:30 am we walk to our gym.
we do a variety of things, pretty much at our own pace; elliptical, run, bike, tone our arms, abs (lots of abs).
im proud :) i feel like we should have stickers on the back of our cars that say im a proud parent of workout honors students! well anywho... would like to know what prompted this? ofcourse you would! well on this great spring break we went home and in Tejas it was just perfect for bathing suits & tanning & shopping. although i succesfully accomplished all of these things, i went up a pant size and my bathing suit wasn't all that flattering. i blame the bathing suit but really freshman year is to blame... or myself? ok myself geez yall really know how to quilt a girl! so i will update yall on this progress! :)
in other news...
relationships are hard but its good to know i got myself a good guy :) i've realized in all this that he cant be my saving grace, i've really got to depend on God for all that! and so as part of that relaztion i started getting serious about my quiet time...right after i work out! and putting that pressure on guy... NOT OKAY LADIES! if you are doing that stop, he cant save you or change you or make you better, you just gotta pray that you will depend on the Lord for it, because no on this earth can make you improve and make it last. if you try you'll end up in a horrible wirlwind of emotional spins that entagle you so much that you cant see straight. trusssst me! [sidenote: early i said "i've realized in all this"... by "this" i meant drama? i guess... we want change that we cant do ourselves and we were depending on each other to make it happen and thats just not how it works] well my advice (feel free to disregard or not) is to depend on God because he is ONLY ONE that can help you change, improve, whatever you wanna call it. p.s. "change" i really mean imrpove and thats not a bad thing... we should constantly be wanting to improve!
sweeeter than usual <3
hollla back lovas.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
sorrryyy...
its been a while. i havent had a lot to talk about till now.
now i have a ton to talk about. although boys probably dont read this...
here's a little note for you;
when you ignore your gf or girl you like because shes annoying you because she's going through alot and wants to talk... its hurts. pretending like she never texted you or called you and not returning those calls/texts. thats a a-hole thing to do, (especially when she knows you got them). dumb excuses as to why you didnt respod. ignoring that hurt... that does serious damage. the end.
i admit that was written out of anger and i think its okay to be angry right about now.
-i'm so glad my momma raised me right. she taught me to do what was right even when its hard. to be a girlfriend, wife, and a momma myslef. she taught that above doing whats right for yourself or your loved ones, you gotta do whats right by Gods standards. but at the same time, sometimes it hurts.
it has been a hard past few days to say the least!
he loves me? yes. he loves God? yes. He wants to pursue me the way God has made it? ehhh.
thats the problem. it sucks to say, but all good things must come to an end.
BUT... all God things can last.
if God takes him away and changes his heart and brings him back then im set<3
on the other hand, im foolish. he loves me, loves God, wants to do it Gods way.
i love him, i dont wanna let go. he is my vent, my best friend, the one i can talk to about anything. what happens if he disagrees, what do i do if he leaves? who do i count on, who helps me back up off the ground, when i fall super hard on my butt? whos gonna hold me? whos gonna understand that even though this is super selfish, its totally okay? whos gonna love me through the good the bad and the crazy? whos gonna laugh with me when only i think its funny? whos gonna hold me? because i could go for that right about now; someone just holding me and letting me know its all gonna be okay and that he'd walk through anything by my side. does this count? will he walk with God more or the same way i am? i need to be led- i'm the woman. i need these things. men need to be praised and loved in their positions, women need to be praised and loved in their persons. its hard to feel/know your loved for your person, for who you are, when you feel ignored and that your like a burden. i cant be on sometimes "to-do" list, my emotions cant be second, and my body especially cant be first.
okay that was a serious rant. and i meant every. word.
lets just be clear about one thing; i hate this but i will do what God wants, whatever that may be. and no i do not care what you think- except if its positive, if its hurtful stay away. i dont wanna deal with anything/anyone else right now.
now i have a ton to talk about. although boys probably dont read this...
here's a little note for you;
when you ignore your gf or girl you like because shes annoying you because she's going through alot and wants to talk... its hurts. pretending like she never texted you or called you and not returning those calls/texts. thats a a-hole thing to do, (especially when she knows you got them). dumb excuses as to why you didnt respod. ignoring that hurt... that does serious damage. the end.
i admit that was written out of anger and i think its okay to be angry right about now.
-i'm so glad my momma raised me right. she taught me to do what was right even when its hard. to be a girlfriend, wife, and a momma myslef. she taught that above doing whats right for yourself or your loved ones, you gotta do whats right by Gods standards. but at the same time, sometimes it hurts.
it has been a hard past few days to say the least!
he loves me? yes. he loves God? yes. He wants to pursue me the way God has made it? ehhh.
thats the problem. it sucks to say, but all good things must come to an end.
BUT... all God things can last.
if God takes him away and changes his heart and brings him back then im set<3
on the other hand, im foolish. he loves me, loves God, wants to do it Gods way.
i love him, i dont wanna let go. he is my vent, my best friend, the one i can talk to about anything. what happens if he disagrees, what do i do if he leaves? who do i count on, who helps me back up off the ground, when i fall super hard on my butt? whos gonna hold me? whos gonna understand that even though this is super selfish, its totally okay? whos gonna love me through the good the bad and the crazy? whos gonna laugh with me when only i think its funny? whos gonna hold me? because i could go for that right about now; someone just holding me and letting me know its all gonna be okay and that he'd walk through anything by my side. does this count? will he walk with God more or the same way i am? i need to be led- i'm the woman. i need these things. men need to be praised and loved in their positions, women need to be praised and loved in their persons. its hard to feel/know your loved for your person, for who you are, when you feel ignored and that your like a burden. i cant be on sometimes "to-do" list, my emotions cant be second, and my body especially cant be first.
okay that was a serious rant. and i meant every. word.
lets just be clear about one thing; i hate this but i will do what God wants, whatever that may be. and no i do not care what you think- except if its positive, if its hurtful stay away. i dont wanna deal with anything/anyone else right now.
Friday, March 4, 2011
"love covers a multitude of sins" -Proverbs 10:12
so my testimony:
I grew up in a Christian home, I had a mommy, daddy, and baby sister. We went to church, my parents were constantly involved in small group, we were very family oriented. As far as I was concerned, we were the perfect Christian family. Now my parents didn't get married till a month before I was born and that was never a secret, but at age 8 is that really important to you? Didn't think so. As I grew up and went into junior high, I was still for the most part a good kid. Then 7th grade came around, a close friend and I decided we wanted to know what was so special about alcohol so we snuck a bottle to her backyard when her parents weren't home and thats how that began. Boys began a little before that and I was just boy crazy, but nothing serious and as far as I was concerned I was a good girl. High school things took off for me. I had a guy or two I took more seriously than usual and I had made drill team- I thought I was the it girl! For a while, I ran on that popularity and made my life drill team, boys, and soon partying. I still went to church on Sundays and Wednesdays, camps all through the summers, and weekend retreats. Then fast foward and it hit me- it's junior year and I am and have been in a compromising place with a boy, drugs, and alcohol. On top of that I'm a officer on drill team and
I grew up in a Christian home, I had a mommy, daddy, and baby sister. We went to church, my parents were constantly involved in small group, we were very family oriented. As far as I was concerned, we were the perfect Christian family. Now my parents didn't get married till a month before I was born and that was never a secret, but at age 8 is that really important to you? Didn't think so. As I grew up and went into junior high, I was still for the most part a good kid. Then 7th grade came around, a close friend and I decided we wanted to know what was so special about alcohol so we snuck a bottle to her backyard when her parents weren't home and thats how that began. Boys began a little before that and I was just boy crazy, but nothing serious and as far as I was concerned I was a good girl. High school things took off for me. I had a guy or two I took more seriously than usual and I had made drill team- I thought I was the it girl! For a while, I ran on that popularity and made my life drill team, boys, and soon partying. I still went to church on Sundays and Wednesdays, camps all through the summers, and weekend retreats. Then fast foward and it hit me- it's junior year and I am and have been in a compromising place with a boy, drugs, and alcohol. On top of that I'm a officer on drill team and
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